Friday, 14 June 2013

The Miscarriage Miracle

In life, it can be hard to see the perfection of painful events, or to feel the love, but I share this story because it reminds me that the soul's view of perfection is entirely different from our human idea of perfection.

Several years ago I had a miscarriage.  It is painful emotionally and very painful physically.  What had I done wrong?  What could I have done differently?  There were many questions alongside the grief and a feeling I can best describe as shame mingled with inadequacy.  Several days later, and still in an enormous amount of physical pain, I had a Reiki treatment. 

No sooner had the treatment begun than I felt as if I was floating towards the ceiling.  I saw a ball of light approach me and I instantly recognised this light, this being:  It was my child, and it was a girl.  This is the message she gave me:

"Thank you.  You were a wonderful mother.  It's not your fault, that was all the time I needed."

I still remember the love that flowed from her, the joy and vitality.  And the relief I felt; I had thought I had done something wrong, that it was my fault and she had paid the price.  The truth was something more complex, inexplicable and utterly loving.

I have since read that some souls do not require 70 or 80 years on earth.  They experience all they need to in 40 or 50 years, sometimes in just two or three brief years.  And some just need to touch the earth for the briefest period. 

All this is governed by the soul's divine knowing, not human desires, needs or fears.  What have I learnt?  To trust that what is unfolding in my life, no matter how challenging, is for the highest good.  I can fight it, or I can work towards finding acceptance, peace and harmony with Life.  Even the tough stuff.